I've been telling myself
that I'll update my blog for a while now. Evidently, I never got around to it.
Until today. Today is the first day in a long time that I didn't have to fight
my impulse to create a hectic plan to make the most of my weekend, mope about the
fact that getting a job has made me a lot less interesting (and politically
incorrect, thereby rendering most of the material I write unsuitable for such a
public forum) or worry about how old I’ve become. Today is a day of epiphanies.
It's a day of acceptance.
My age has finally caught up with me. I've decided that it's best to
accept that. They say age is just a number. But so are all other numbers so it’s
not particularly comforting.
I’ve accepted the fact
that my memory is awful. I’ve been clinging to an illusion of good recollection
based on a lousy internet connection that makes me type everything over so many
times that I can't help but remember it.
I've accepted the fact
that my dreams are no longer as fun to recall as they once were because my
sub-conscious mind is not as creative in its use of new imagery and abstraction
as it once used to be.
I've accepted the fact
that inspiration will never strike when I want it to. I can only write when I
have no point to make and my thoughts
are only interesting when they fulfill no purpose, as they once used to be when I
was truly jobless. I formally recognise joblessness as a virtue. Even the
most casual youtuber will concur.
I've accepted that, all
its idiocy notwithstanding, TV is an inspiration because of the sheer volume of
writing material one could generate while staring idly at it. If I were to run
a firm (to the ground), I'd put TVs in each cubicle instead of computers.
Instead of ads, I'd slip in compulsory reading material. The employees’ brains
would be so soupy by the time they've gone through two hours of programming that
they wouldn't know enough to unglue their eyes from the screen.
And lastly, most
importantly, I've accepted that French toast is the only breakfast in the world
that can reliably guarantee a good day.
